Realize.

I've been thinking. And my thoughts have lead me nowhere. I keep trying to keep giving myself reasons to hold on. But time after time you crush the only feelings that try to hold on. What do you expect me to do? I'll wait. But don't expect me to, if your going to be like this. You don't know how much this is killing me. You always act like everything is alright, that it will always get better. You know what? It won't. I wont always be superman. I can only handle so much. Even superman dies.
I honestly dont even know anymore.
Don't get me wrong. I'll wait, but give me SOMETHING. Anything! Something so i still know you care. Because lately? I've felt like a stranger. Someone who means absolutely nothing. I was so excited when everything started, and when things developed over time. But it seems like while time is passing by, you become more neglectful and more ignorant. Do NOT take me for granted, as much as i love you, i WILL NOT be here forever. There is a limited amount of times i can break til i shatter.
The one thing that really gets to me is: The only time you can ever change is when someone tells you to. Why can't you realize what's happening?
You can't say sorry all the time, you can't feel bad all the time because your doing something wrong.
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
All this time, you ALWAYS worry about what OTHER people will think, if you do something. I hardly cuss, especially when it has to do with you. But what the FUCK. who cares?! Who the fuck are they? You just have to realize that opinions dont matter, if you let them matter, then, its over.
You can't honestly believe this. I wait, and wait, and wait, and wait. Yet you walk away with a smile. Like its a game. You might think its cute, or think it just "nothing", but you know what? It changes EVERYTHING. Each time you think, "Oh, i'll do something different tomorrow", it will be too late. Things have already change, and they will CONTINUE to change if you don't step up.

Be the person i know you are. Don't let people hold you back.
Because if you don't.

I wont be here when you look for me.